It was 12.30 am and there I lay struggling to fetch some sleep worried by the thought of getting up early in the morning burdened with the popping issues in office. Ever seen a dog getting wet and getting rid of every possible drop of water by shaking up at that very next moment; similarly shed off those “office” thoughts and started thinking about how wonderful the day had been. Despite of the numerous attempts by my sore throat and fever to deter my spirits; I had enjoyed the day to its fullest in every possible way. Had been out the whole evening on a shopping spree [Now you know the real reason behind my day being so wonderful ;)].Being done with that I stood up and unfurled the curtains and gazed at the deep dark sky lightened up with those shimmering stars..An electric impulse traversed down an exon to the synaptic terminal evoking communication between the neurons forcing me to think about the true stars of my life.The 2 important F’s of my life: Family and Friends!

Too many things popped up at that point of time. Completely puzzled with the downpour of this gamut of thoughts; my brain carefully plucked a name and I was transported in my past by this amazing thought machine as I call it. Friendship is something too hard to define for me and for all those who have ever in their life had a true friend. I have been blessed with genuine friends since childhood [Touch-wood]. I consider myself fortunate to have realized its worth from an early stage but someone came along who renovated its meaning. Yamini: I won’t call her my best friend as the word won’t do justice to what she means to me. They say some people just click from the instant they meet each other and bond for life. Well for me it was completely different because we do not have anything in common: she possessing all the traits I dislike in a person. Strange as the word can be, I neglected everything when it came to her. Our relation was meant to materialize despite all the differences.

10 years is a long time and life has been a roller coaster ride since then - Our crazy times, the absolute insane talks, the incessant laughs, emotional talks, her consistency in being inconsistent about her love life, the blame games, my dominating side, the allegations, and a lot more but above all our togetherness. Our destiny is so interlinked that no matter what we decide it forces us to meet in the same city, eventually sharing the same place and it’s been a vicious circle.

I was still gazing at the sky recollecting the sparkling moments and there was this 1000 watt smile on my face thanking God for all that He had given me. My thoughts were suddenly interrupted because of my phone. I have this habit of putting my cell on silent mode every night and I cursed myself to have forgotten it. There are two things I strongly dislike: 1st being woken up from dreams [no matter whether I am sleeping or not] and the other which had just happened. It was a friend calling and I know the reason must have been to check up on my health but I had a valid reason not to have taken the call. To my surprise I was going through a combination of euphoria and blues. Weird as it sounds I knew the reason behind it and had taken every possible effort to avoid the topic since a month but someday I had to deal with it. I didn’t want to give myself any lame reason not to ponder upon it.

There are a few people whom I can bear with 24*7 and needless to say, Yam belongs to that league. She is getting married on the 10th of December and here comes the sole reason behind me feeling gloomy. I was trying to be normal, peppy; oh I am all right types since so many days with this issue taking its toll over a part of my brain gradually. Yesterday was the first time I didn’t want to escape this fact and chose to accept it that we will have to part ways. Hell no, I am not talking about disconnecting with her but getting used to life without her presence, without her dancing all around me since the moment she enters the house, without her abusive language, without her melodrama, without her stupendously stupid problems, without her ever arising silly issues ranging from “chittu kya pehnu” to “yaar usne propose kiya” and the list goes on. You would think life would be much more fun without these things but as a matter of fact, every bit of insanity has been adding many colours to my life. Every friend in this world shares your sorrows, pain, is your life support system and all goodie things but it’s bizarre that I am going to miss a lot more than only the goodie things……

This is my first post Yam and it’s exclusively for you. I know you are always upset that I never express myself. All I want you to know is even if I never show doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything. You mean a lot to me Yam!! I think that should say it all. Here’s wishing you a great life ahead.

P.S – Thank you Canty and Jo for motivating me. It’s because of you guys that I have created an account here.